Body Integrity Health

After my intense stint of working for Kitya I ended up working in the film industry for one season.  I assisted a friend of mine in the accounts department.  The problem was that it didn’t matter how much sleep I got I kept becoming completely exhausted by 3pm each afternoon.  I used to make my own oat, fruit and nut bars to take into work and I would just devour one after the other.  I could not stop eating and I couldn’t focus on my work.  For the life of me I did not know what was wrong.

A good nights sleep was not a common thing for me at the best of times.  Semi-insomniac would be the word.  But this perpetual exhaustion was just ridiculous.  I found it hard to concentrate on what people were saying to me.  I felt like I had the brain of an 80 year old.  I just couldn’t hack it.

After the end of season I left and became a full time belly dance teacher.  I taught one class a day and earned enough money to get me by each month.  All I had to do was save up my energy each day to pull off a good hour and a half class.  It worked well.  Unfortunately the downside was the drastic drop in students during winter.  Winter in Cape Town is very rainy, a good time to hibernate!  And everyone did.  During this time I got into a relationship.  I found myself becoming more and more irrational, not remembering what I had said and constantly contradicting myself.  I remember when I stayed at my partners house I would end up having a panic attack because the sheets weren’t cotton and my skin became uncomfortably sensitive.  It was ridiculous! 

By the next winter I felt stuck in a rut and decided to go and visit my mother overseas and work in Europe for a while.  It was great to have a change of scenery, I have always found travel very regenerating.  I ended up staying with a very kind friend in London and got a job as a secretary for a group of Osteopaths.  Again my energy levels were down, this time worse than ever, we worked in a building with no windows.  Lack of light was clearly a bad thing for me.  I remember sleeping 12 hours a night in UK as a kid, from lack of sunlight.  I couldn’t concentrate on what people were saying to me and kept messing up badly with the computer, even though it was very straight forward.  I got more and more stressed, ending up having panic attacks on the way to work each day.  I new I would get fired, so I found an au-pair job with an English family in the South of France.

It was so beautiful there, but things just got worse.  I had to try and cover up my exhaustion, which led to neurosis and more panic attacks.  I could hardly sleep and my body was rigid with aches and pains.  I could only think of food all the time.  I had not eaten unhealthily at all, no meat, wheat, sugar or dairy, yet I was blowing up like a balloon.  I couldn’t fit into my clothes anymore and I was just eating veggies and salads.  I could not figure out what was going on.  I just wanted to burst into tears and say “can someone please tell me what is wrong with me!”.

The last straw was waking up in the middle of the night and not being able to move my body for a minute.  I had such a huge panic attack.  I phoned my friends in UK and SA and arranged to come home where I had a better chance of getting help.

And I did……..

At 20 I was so excited about being able to help people the way Kitya had helped me.  I thought this was such an awesome ability.  I went on a short trip to Europe to visit my family.  The whole time I was travelling, I day dreamed about my perfect job, being an assistant to Kitya and become her apprentice.  So on my return, I got a waitressing job and saved up until I could afford to do the first module of the Kinesiology course.  It was fascinating, I had no idea one could get such an accurate response from the body and that you can find out any information that you need, just through muscle testing.  It was like a lie detector test for the body instead of the mind, fascinating!  I absorbed the course like a sponge and counted the days to the next module.  On the first day of the next module, my little dream came true, Kitya asked me to work for her.  I couldn’t believe it.  I was so happy.

Working for Kitya was like plugging into a well-stream of knowledge. I have never met anyone with such strong intuition balanced with such strong logical knowledge.  I saw her reading a huge neurology book one weekend and wondered where on earth she stored all her information.

She taught me what Candida was.  This happened on a first hand level by having to do a gruelling detox for a month.  It was not much fun for the first week, then I became aware of how my energy levels were improving and how clear my mind was.  By the end of the detox I was bounding up to work, instead of dragging myself each morning.  I had no idea that Candida had such a profound effect on one, it is like being in a zombie state.  When it is gone, you feel awake for the first time.

Kitya taught me a lot about nutrition, she told me what books to read and got me making healthy meals for us each lunchtime.

She also sent me off on seminars all over the show including the most fascinating talk on natural progesterone and oestrogen dominance.  My jaw dragged on the floor for a month after that one.

I learned a lot about posture.  Kitya had back classes where she used her physio basis, mixed with Alexander Technique and Feldenkrais to she her clients how to avoid imbalances.  I loved back classes.  Kitya’s guidance completely changed my relationship to my own body and although she was working on my body regularly, she was teaching me how to heal myself and prevent further problems. 

I felt the knowledge that I was learning was so simple and essential, I couldn’t understand why they didn’t teach it in schools.

I ended up staying with her for two years learning every Kinesiology course that I could and studying the beginning of Cranio Sacral Therapy, what a profound healing modality that was!!!